9:36 AM 10/28/2013 – It never occured to me that I would have to spend a week without scanning through my Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram feeds. But I put the challenge on myself because I felt like I needed it.
Firstly, I did it because of my growing paranoia of things and instances that I cannot control. Frankly, it was making me unhappy and insecure.
All night until daybreak, I would be surfing through Facebook, stalking on people I honestly do not really know, but nevertheless, people who pique my interest because of certain circumstances that I do not wish to discuss anymore. Then, before I go to sleep, I would regret it because I knew it wasted my time and didn’t really help boost my esteem. As a matter of fact, it lowered my esteem. It was becoming a bad habit.
Secondly, I felt like I needed to change my spiritual condition. Many people complain of experiencing “existential crisis.” But really, all they’re going through is a matter of spiritual deficit. So I started reading Norman Peale’s The Power of Positive Thinking. Although I knew that I was generally a negative person, it didn’t strike me just how negative I have been all these years until after I read Mr. Peale’s book. It was not only an eye-opener for me, but more especially, it lead me closer to my faith.
Now I know that I’m not really completely healed yet. But I’m so full of hope and belief in God right at this moment that I just know, indeed, that with God everything is possible.
Reading the book, I also generated a new philosophy in life and it is that a person can never truly live unless he believes in a Power greater than himself. It is fine, I suppose, to believe in yourself. But we are all human, we normally err (even on a day-to-day basis). If we fail ourselves, what then? But if we sincerely believe in a Higher Being, we transcend past our imperfections and faults. We gain a sense of true belongingness and hope.
I don’t mean to preach but I guess that’s just how it goes when you’re so spiritually lifted and inspired. 😉
Thirdly, my interest in serving others has come to an all time high. I want to be part of the community. I want to help. Perhaps my Atenean upbringing in high school is to take credit for this desire in me to be “a woman for others.” As an adolescent and teen, I was very self-centered. I think it is very important to point out that one’s bad habits should be referred to in the past tense. It’s like taking a leap, and being responsible for creating a version of oneself that not only knows better, but does better.
Day in and day out, I try to empty myself of feelings of hate and resentment– all these negative forces that have pulled me back ever since my parents broke up.
I learned, not only through reading an inspirational book, that life is simply to be lived with love and concern for others.
So far, I can say that this has to be the most sincere post I’ve ever written. This is Day 5 of my week without social media and, save for a post or two in the morning when I feel inexpressibly inspired, I haven’t looked yet at my notifications or news feeds. I do not regret my pause from the social media hype. Because of this challenge, I am able to wake up early in the morning not dwelling on stressful matters. I just awaken to a sense of hope and then I pray and start my day.
On Day 5, I can safely say this truly is an experience that has changed me on more levels than I expected. 🙂