Lately, I have been battling over not being too bothered by my acne. It’s so horrible for me to post nice, flawless faces of myself when, in reality, my face is covered with pimples. I’ve had pimples for more than a year now. You could say it wasn’t so serious then. But now, it’s gotten so worse I had to check with a dermatologist and get myself some prescription medications, both oral and topical.
It’s depressing. I don’t like it. My face is swollen especially in the morning. It itches and it hurts both on my face and my self-esteem. But I have to accept it. In one way or another, I did something to cause my current situation. I should’ve known better. Although I’m finding myself increasingly conscious of how I look, I’m also actually in that phase where I realize what true confidence means.
Confidence is when you can be happy no matter what you look like. It is when you can show yourself up to work despite a skin condition. It is when you walk down the street and people stare at you but you don’t really care because you know that’s not all there is about you. Confidence is accepting every bit of who you are.
It reminds me of the following quote:
“The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.” ― Ralph Waldo Emerson
While it is true that life’s purpose is not to be happy, I still think being sad is a waste of time. So rather than endlessly frown over my current state, I choose positive thoughts and try not to mind my skin too much. I concentrate on the rest of the things that I have to do and love to do… and one of the things I love to do is blog (hahah, I just have to connect everything else, right? From my skin problems to happiness to blogging).
Speaking of happiness and being positive, I thought it’d be great to plant a little sunflower on my blog and, voilà! My little ray of sunshine right on my blog’s header. Now I’m not always a positive person but it only takes a little yellow and a smile to turn my mood around. Happiness is all about perspective. Also, I chose this sunflower as a header to accomplish Day Seven: Keep Personalizing (hee hee).
Sending my love to all! <3
(Featured photo from Ryan McGuire)