Day 50: Create even when it hurts

Familiar with masochism? It’s when people love inflicting pain on themselves. In some ways, writers have to adhere to some form of masochism in order to deliver. Writing is very intricate work. It requires patience and relentlessness unlike any 9-5 job. With writing (especially freelance), you have time in your hands but you have to make the most of it.

After doing some yoga practice for a good 19 minutes today, the app I was using splashed an idea in my face: every moment matters. And this made me think hard: maybe I’m not really making every moment count by always procrastinating on my writing and waiting for that “feeling” of wanting to write again.

As I’m writing this, I’m also doing the laundry, waiting for the timer to tell me it’s done and I can now hang the half-dried clothes to let it air dry. I anticipate being interrupted from writing… and that’s okay. Many articles on the Internet will tell you that how you react to “interruptions” will determine your (freelance) writing career. This is true to the core, I discovered. When people interrupt me, I usually get annoyed, irritated even. And I would offer them a piece of my mind.

But then I also learned some little things from meditation through an app I use called Calm. And that is to use the energy of irritation and channel it into an energy of nourishment. Sounds a little woo-woo, am I right? But it makes sense at least for me. There’s a lot to say about recognizing and being aware of your thoughts and choosing your reaction afterwards. It’s empowering. It’s freeing.

So I create even though I have to pause in between. I write even though I know I’ll get distracted. I get back relentlessly to my flow even when it hurts.

Life moves on and you have to continue to move along with it. You can’t afford to miss out on your dream because you got distracted for a moment (or a few months). When I do yoga even though I don’t feel like it, I enlighten myself by thinking, “What else would I rather do with this time, anyway?” Pick the moment and be there.

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